10 Inspiring Stories from Health Care Professionals
2) Starting to Actually Like Nursing!
Through so much of it I was nervous, SEVERELY anxious, would go home crying, etc, etc. — wondered if I’d made a mistake, HATED the job, HATED the coworkers, the patients, their nutty families, etc. I SO doubted myself so much of the time and had so much fear about things and my abilities.
And then, something just seemed to turn around. I can’t even pinpoint it. I’m about five months off orientation now and a lot of it I’ve done before now, a lot of it I CAN handle, a lot of it I keep in my head now. I seem to be gaining my confidence now and don’t really get riled about things as much. I mean — doctors don’t even bother me anymore — even if they ARE mean — I just realized they also are under a lot of stress and patients are making incredible demands on them as well.
I don’t know if I’ve trained my brain, or what — but for some reason, not much scares me anymore. Things just all seem to work out and I’ve come to realize that the entire WORLD does not rest on my shoulders. Nursing is a team effort and I am just a part of it.
I can’t say I absolutely LOVE my unit — there are crazy things about it. I will probably move on when the commitment is done, but I can now see myself surviving it for the next year and am excited to move on to the next specialty. I mean — I am STOKED about wherever it is I will go next!!
And I have even taken another nurse or two under my wing now, which was REALLY a confidence booster for me.
And I have had my challenges — a special needs son while in nursing school, a non-existent spouse, family demands, budget demands, NO HELP, fighting fatigue, etc.
I don’t know. All I can say is stick with it, wade through the pain, the suffering, the hurt, and the fear — and you CAN come through it and start to gain confidence. And believe me, I am the most self-doubting, unconfident, shy, anxious self-beater-upper you’ve ever seen!!
I had an acute patient the other day — albeit a very sick one. He was lethargic during most of the time I was caring for him. But after a couple days of taking care of him, I confidently asked if he would give me a smile — and he did. A toothy grin, right at me — he KNEW I enjoyed taking care of him — and his smile was the most heartwarming thing I’ve seen in a long time.
Stick with it – the confident YOU will emerge. It takes time — sometimes it takes dealing with that humiliation, or terror, or disappointment — but you CAN turn that corner. If I did, anyone CAN.